"That's not me at all!", "I don't recognize myself!"...
If you've often had these thoughts, it's completely normal. In fact, we often act more externally determined than we think.
Why do we always behave in the same way in certain situations - even though we may have known for a long time that this behavior gets us into trouble? It's simple: it has been taught and trained into us over the years. For so long that it has become automatic. They are based on values and moral concepts that we often inherited from others as children through our upbringing and experiences.
Autopilots are a good thing - but only if there is a flesh-and-blood captain sitting next to them who can take the helm in an emergency.